This is a post i wrote on a forum I'm on, but thought id post it here too. I'll probably be posting a lot the next few weeks... I feel like journaling this process is going to be the most helpful. so enjoy and follow, o get bored and don't- it's no thang to me! :)
so here we go ladies! I hope you gals dont mind if I post on here about this whole process, feel free to quit reading whenever, i wont be offended! :) i just need a place to vent and process. I've been up an hour and a half and so far alright. its a beautiful day so I think i'm going to plant flowers and get outside and clean my house and try to keep myself moving. it makes you so sleepy not having cigs! lame!
I would post about the quitting thing on fb, but i know i will get too much attention over it, ya know? and that doesnt help! my grandma knows that we are quitting and every time she sees me thats all she wants to talk about!!! really not helpful! I'd rather just ignore the whole thing and live my life like i have never been a smoker and im just living every day like I have always done.
my friend had a good point about instead of just quitting cigarettes to change your whole routine, that way everything is different and so you dont miss it as much. Well, the plan was play with bella, coffee, and while shes down for a nap, take a shower and put on make up etc (since i have been a total slob the last 6 months!) and then clean etc until she wakes up. Once shes awake, I was going to make sure to DO something, a walk, the park whatever! but so far, i'm sitting here with a stomach ache and feeling like going back to sleep. maybe i could just sleep the next 5 weeks off and wake up without the hacking or addiction.
I will never be addicited to anything again! it f&*cking sucks!
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