Smokeless- Week 2, day 3

So we are on the second week of this whole thing, and honestly, this week has been easy.  I haven't even felt like a cigarette.  Maybe because I have been busy 24/7.  Maybe because I've chosen to put my focus on other things.  I don't really know.  But it hasn't been nearly as hard.  Even though we had a few slips last week, I am still confident and strong in doing this, which is more than half the battle. 

As I have gone longer and longer without cigarettes, I've realized a few things.

1.  I now have an 100 minutes everyday.  10 cigarettes a day, each taking ten minutes.  At first it was a little weird, and I'd have moments of being really bored, but its amazing how fast time goes when you start realizing that you have a shit ton that is yelling for your attention!

2.  I actually smelled a hint of new-ish car smell in my Explorer the other day.  YAY!  it doesn't reek anymore!

3.  Addiction is a scary thing.  Looking at our finances, we would always find a way to get cigarettes.  At any cost.  And that is a huge reason we are behind in so many areas financially, or at the least on the edge.  People around us were put on the back burner if we were short on cash and still had to buy x- amount of cigarettes.  it was crazy.  I never realized how much we sacrificed to make smoking happen everyday.  And its true of any addiction- no matter what, you never go with out whatever it is you "need."  As I said before, I never want to get there again!

Thats a few thoughts for the day today.  My brain has been a monumental mess the last few days, mostly because my house looks like it was just hit by a tornado!  Looks like that 100 minutes is already gone today!

Quitting smoking, day one.

This is a post i wrote on a forum I'm on, but thought id post it here too.  I'll probably be posting a lot the next few weeks...  I feel like journaling this process is going to be the most helpful.  so enjoy and follow, o get bored and don't- it's no thang to me! :)

so here we go ladies! I hope you gals dont mind if I post on here about this whole process, feel free to quit reading whenever, i wont be offended! :) i just need a place to vent and process.   I've been up an hour and a half and so far alright.  its a beautiful day so I think i'm going to plant flowers and get outside and clean my house and try to keep myself moving.  it makes you so sleepy not having cigs!  lame!

I would post about the quitting thing on fb, but i know i will get too much attention over it, ya know?  and that doesnt help!  my grandma knows that we are quitting and every time she sees me thats all she wants to talk about!!!  really not helpful!  I'd rather just ignore the whole thing and live my life like i have never been a smoker and im just living every day like I have always done. 

my friend had a good point about instead of just quitting cigarettes to change your whole routine, that way everything is different and so you dont miss it as much.  Well, the plan was play with bella, coffee, and while shes down for a nap, take a shower and put on make up etc (since i have been a total slob the last 6 months!) and then clean etc until she wakes up.  Once shes awake, I was going to make sure to DO something, a walk, the park whatever! but so far, i'm sitting here with a stomach ache and feeling like going back to sleep.  maybe i could just sleep the next 5 weeks off and wake up without the hacking or addiction. 

I will never be addicited to anything again!  it f&*cking sucks!